Wish

Looking outside of my kitchen window I hear voices of laughter and childish screams. I see a family playing outside with waterguns, hunting for easter eggs with careful oversavtions. I look and listen with envy; how I wish I had a family like that.


Why must my family be the one to have hate against their own son, brother, sister in law and brohter in law, neice and nephew? What has society done to make them live with such hatred? We never laugh anymore, if anything its me that their laughing at for some bullshit that they found/ decided to knit pick at. They allways want to seem like they are perfect, and the boast about how perfect their lives are. Newsflash you're putting your husbands in hell. Maybe if you actually took the time to sit them down they'd tell you whats in their mind.

I can see it and hear it from my mom what this marriage has done to her. Its like her and my dad are complete strangers. They never have conversations anymore. If anything its an arguement or an act that they put on to hide the truth in front of my friends. You guys have seen what my dad has done to me before, what hes said to you guys. I dont even know I must say that this Easter couldve been great, the weather was perfect and everything but no, its just an easter just at home doing nothing; dad is up watching tv, my mom is doing work, brother is out, and i'm here sitting on this couch typing my heart out.

Theres just so much to me that I wish people would stop and really understand. I'm tired of people assuming things about me. I'm tired of the attitude people put on in front of me its a joke. I'm tired of making things I want happen if people arent even willing to lift a finger. I'm tired of everything and I need a new life because this one is seriously smelling like a piece of shit.

I'm fucking tired of it all. Everyone just needs to grow the fuck up and stop being jerks, assholes, and bitches. Because that shit willnot bring you anywhere in life. Do me a fucking favor and take a good look at yourselves.

Theres so much more to life